Tranquilize

Why the fuck do i feel like shit?!?
Do u need a reason to feel like shit?
Living is getting unbearable..
SomeoneHelpME.
I need someone like either Shar or V or anyone from 4C1 or PL.
I'm getting too desperate...
Everything is fucked up..
Assignments are piling up, im buying stupid
clothes which i dont like..like these 2
shirts with the words, "rock star" on them.
What the fuck is my problem? Do i think
im a rock star or smth??? Fuck.
And i wore one of the shirts to school
today..i felt like shit cus im too fat.
its like my body doesnt even have metabolism
or smth..every fucking thing i eat becomes fats
and get stored on my hips and inner thighs and
back and arms..fucking shit, thats what i am..
Im too talkative and stupid..why cant i be
smarter..why do ppl judge me so wrongly..
shit holes.
I've got a quiz on thursday and i havent
started studying yet..its a long boring
chapter..I'm gonna flunk it..
How wonderful.
But it isnt counted but im still gonna
give my teacher a wrong impression.
whatever.
Tomorrow is Perve COach's cheerleading..
yay.
physical pain is nothing..
I'm so sick, so sick of my life.
oh, today my classmates were talking abt
Bungee jumping and i told them i wanna
bungee jump without the rope and some of them
went silent, some switched topics.
HA!