These picutres above are of me in white. And i didnt want these pictures to be taken but my class rep was just taking it anyway. I've decided to join NP Strings which is a classical music ensemble..they'll teach u how to play guitar as well. the thing is that no one is joining with me, so im suppose to go for practice lessons alone, IF i get into it. I just sent them an email asking if musical background is required. Hopefully not. And i HATE CHEERLEADING SO MUCH. 1. the coach keeps picking on me during the stretching 2. I'm the fatest and tallest girl there [all the girls are below 165cm), which means that the i have to do the guy job with the guys , which is called , back spotting. You are supposed to hold the flyer's waist and carry her up and if she falls, u catch her. You're suppose to be her pillow. But im happy with being a back spotter cuz i dont need to be tossed or i dont need people stepping on me(: But on the whole, i hate cheerleading cuz i find it stupid and meaningless. If my coach sees this, he'll probably be screaming and running around. idiot. i mean he wants me to roll in front of everybody, how embarrassing it will be when my shirt drops all the way down and everyone can see my tummy fats!!!! thank god i escaped that..i mean the ppl there are small sized and fat-free you know. Of course i'll be super self consious right?? Hopefully the 10 more weeks of this shallow Hell will pass and i'll pass this stupid cheerleading module. You know if u fail, you're suppose to re-do it agn!?! I'll be damned if i fail this.